when I started listening to my heart…

they wanted me to be according to their expectations…

they wanted me to listen what they say…

they wanted me to like what they show…

for all the above things to happen,

they wished me to be dependent on them…

but I just followed my heart. nothing else did I care.

finally, they came to my way ๐Ÿ™‚

This reminded me one famous quote of Swami Vivekananda:

Yes! First they ridiculed me, then they opposed me finally now they accepted me!

My new year resolutions

Today on my way back to office from hospital in auto I just contemplated a bit and decided to come up with some resolutions for New Year 2007. Until now I had no habit of making resolutions. So what? I will start from next year. New Year, New Habits ๐Ÿ™‚

I am just jotting down in the order they struck to my mind.

One: Increase financial aptitude.

Two: Start investing and saving (and hence Tax planning).

Three: Learn disciplined spending.

Four: Learn XML related technologies and take one external certification on XML.

Five: Take SCWCD certification.

Six: Read Wren and Martin High School Grammar book. There is a lot of room for improvement of my English grammar ๐Ÿ™‚

Seven: Read, Read and Read. Lots of general books are pending.

Eight: Complete โ€˜Think without Inkโ€™ book

Nine: Learn to drive bike comfortably in traffic with pillion rider. U know, I can go above 100 if I m the only one on the road ๐Ÿ™‚

Ten: Just mind my own business.Dont waste time by involving in unnecessary matters and issues. Just be focused on my goals and aspirations.

Duh! Thatโ€™s the list of 10 things not only I wish to do…but I will do in 2007.Well I am a good planner and that is not the end. I am a good executor too :-)Just recently I woke up and realized that the problem is not in execution but in planning. I donโ€™t know why and what to do. If that is the case forget about how to do. It’s been exactly the case with me…but only till now. Certainly not from next year ๐Ÿ™‚

Feeling-in-Love

Few days back when I was browsing one of my favorite sites on the internet: pravsworld dot com, I saw the follwoing lines on Love.

“Love is so powerful because being loved causes one to love onself.Nothing
contributes to the self-image more than being loved by another.When the words ‘I love you’ are expressed to you for the first time, your world blossoms, your heart glows with inspiration,confidence and thoughts of the moutains you can move.It’s more than an emotional kick; suddenly you like yourself more than you have ever before.”

That is exactly how I am feeling from the past two months and will continue for the rest of my life.The only way to know it is to experience it.

God! Why have you sent me to this earth…

They say- We all come to this earth to fulfill a unique and special purpose in our lives.

I too came to this earth some 23 years back.Then

what is my purpose here?
why am I here?
what am I supposed to do with my so called gifted Life?

Unfortunately these are some of the most difficult questions to answer for anyone.Very few people on this earth know about what exactly they want to do with their lives.Among them even few people like Steve Jobs and Sania Mirza realized it at very early age in their lives.No wonder he is a self-made millionaire at the age of 21.Some people realize that late in their lives.But considering the fact that majority of the people die without even knowing that, they are far better.At least they knew it in their life time.So I have 3 classifications here.[1] Those who realize early in their lives like Sachin Tendulkar, Steve Jobs, Bill Gates,Sania Mirza et al. [2] Then there are many people who realize their purpose when they are half way or so through their lives.Most of the todays entrepreneurs-turned-techies and dotcom millionaires fall under this category. [3] Finally comes very large group of people who even don’t know what they are destined to do in their life time and simply pass away.These people are huge in numbers compared to the first two groups. With all my efforts I want to make sure that I will not end up in category-3.

It’s been 23 years since I am existing here.At different points of time in these 23 years, I found two things which I love to do.First one I found it very early during my adolescent days and second one I found when I was 19 or 20.Until recently I had no clue how to accomplish both of them.

First one is very personal to me and hence am keeping it confidential for now.I will let you know about that later once I completely succeed in that.It’s just a matter of few months before I close it.It’s in very near future.And I am really very very lucky to find that.Though I have written my own script and executed that perfectly, I should attribute some of the credit to luck as well considering the “connecting-dots” philosophy of Steve Jobs.I have been very successful in grabbing the opportunity that was opened up to me.

That is only half of the story.Another half is still pending and as of now I have no clue how I will accomplish that.And that is to become an entrepreneur.This is a very tough job.And my only hope is the confidence I accrue from the success in my first half and my ability to stick to something I desperately want .Lets see what will happen in this dimension as well.

I didn’t have any clue how I accomplish them.If you take the first case , all I had was sheer belief.That’s it.Nothing else.I knew only what.But I didn’t knew how, till recently.But it all happened like a magic.I don’t deny the fact that I have been instrumental in making that happen.I planned it well and executed it very well.And the confidence it gave me is what I want to carry to accomplish my second mission as well.

But for the second mission, it might take some time because as of now I am doing nothing than to simply reading Businessworld and BusinessToday magazines to follow and track the lives and careers of some of the entrepreneurs who were successful, who were not so successful and who were working their guts out to be successful.I don’t know anything about stock markets . My financial aptitude is absolute zero.Nothing I know.But I wanted to become a successful entrepreneur.I just have a dream and belief that I will.

When these both missions were accomplished, that is when I feel my destiny is unfolded, my life is fulfilled and my purpose is realized.

God! as usual please be with me all the times and help me in achieving your objective of sending me to this wonderful planet.

A tribute to a friend called- Theja

Thejaswi Kolla , Theja in short is the lad whose friendship has changed me a lot from the moment I met him in GITAM College circa 6 years back. I feel he is one of the best gifts GITAM had presented to me to be my best friend, critic and inspirer.I am a firm believer of The Power of Association and it is his association that has changed me a lot over these years. I admire his intelligence, values, vision, commitment, his craziness for computer games, his voracious appetite for reading fiction and his self management capabilities a lot.I found dumb-struck when he eneded up as topper in GITAM and rank#2 in Andhra University with exactly 10 days of preparation.Not more not less.No wonder that now he is into one of the best and most sought-after b-schools of India, The IIM-Bangalore.

What I like very much about him are not his achievements and ranks.They are secondary. If character is how we behave when no one is watching us, then I would say that he is best epitome of character.His is very best at managing himself.It is because I was with him, I saved myself from countless number of traps in GITAM be it of any kind.It is his maturity and his point of view on the world that made me mature and helped me improve my view of looking at things.I am what I am because I had him during my most worst of the days with me alarming, criticizing and inspiring.Otherwise Chaitanya now would have been in very undesirable position.Even today I reap the benefits of his friendship in many number of ways.

While he has an array of very admirable and followable personality traits, he too has his own set of irritable habits and he is definitely not Mr Perfect.Nevertheless he was, is and will be my best friend forever.Show me someone who is perfect! Thank you Theja for being there for me.I will be always be grateful to you for everything you have done unto me.

Why I die for Businessworld and BusinessToday

BW and BT are the magazines which I die to read.I have been reading them from the past 2 years and hardly I missed any of the issues. I have been reading them voraciously and passionately week in and week out.But the question what many of my friends dont understand is why? whats so special about them. This post is an attempt enlighten them.

The numero uno reason is this:They bring you the best of the English language.The way they present the cover story, the snappy headlines and not to mention the quality of the content and of course the ads too are interesting to me.In short they cater to my learning needs of English. I have learnt so many words, expressions and phrases just because I have been reading them.

And English as such you can learn from any other magazine or book or journal.Why only BW and BT? Here comes the reason #2. Unlike many political and fashion magazines which talk about useless crap about celebrities and politics , they speak about Business which make our economy, the visionary leaders behind them and their global aspirations and ambitions- which is my passion.The Ambanis, Tatas, Birlas, Ruias of Essar, Munjals of Hero Honda, Wadias of Bombay Dyeing, The Singhs of Ranbaxy et al, the upcoming low cost airlines and the vision of the leaders behind them, how they are struggling to tackle competition.They talk about new born entrepreneurs, their starting travails,their wonderful successes.

The prime reason behind what all we have today as a prosperous nation and prosperous individuals is because someone somewhere dreamt too big.In my case it is Mr NR Narayana Murthy.His dream 25 years back is helping me to achieve my dreams today and in turn is giving me confidence to dream even bigger.In fact there are some similarities among us. [1] He dreamt big , I too dream big. [2] He is a son of school teacher, My dad is too a school teacher [3] He is a man of values and I too am. [4] His efforts matches his dreams. Here I stumble ๐Ÿ˜ฆ have to pick up here. he is way toooo ahead of me ๐Ÿ™‚

Ok.Enough of levity! My dream is to get featured in any of those magazines someday as a CEO of my own venture.Chaitanya Vivek CEO and MD, Chaitanya Inc. Isn’t that awesome? ๐Ÿ™‚ Lets wait and see…

In Love with English

Unlike most of my friends, I fell in love with English after I joined Infosys in october of 2004.During my third year of engineering at GITAM I wondered when most of my friends were trying hard to push tons of words in to their minds and were cramming wordlists for GRE and CAT kind of exams.But then I didnt find any reason for myself to join that junta. I dont know any standard English word.And my English was not bad.It was not good either.[ Forget GRE/CAT. At that time managing to get through engineering with distinction was a great aspiration for me. I did it of course] It is after joining Infosys I realized the benefits of communicating in good English.And it is then I started putting my conscious efforts to achieve that objective of mastering English language.

My approach and way of learning English is very different and unique.For me the purpose of learning good English has lot more to do than just to give some exams.I believed in the principle of repeated usage. I installed a dictionary in my office desktop.From the on whenever I encountered a new unknown word in any mail or poster or in some subject matter , I used to refer that dictionary.Thanks to dictionary softwares.You need not spend much time scrolling pages.Just type the word and get its meaning.If you keep on looking at the same word for over too many number of times, that word permanently makes its place in your mind.You need not again put conscious effort to remember or mug that word specifically.All I did is to refer dictionary innumerable times.That has been very helpful for me.

English language is like an ocean. Especially its vocabulary.It has vast vocabulary( ask the CAT aspirants.The makers of English section of CAT exam paper keeps on coming up with new words year after year.No clue where they find them) so I thought I should keep myself more engaged with vocabulary.As long as I am in office any unknown word is just a click away.But when I was at home, I was tired of scrolling pages in the heavy Oxford dictionary and I realized that I am spending more time scrolling the dictioanry pages.Then came the idea of Digital Dictionary [ It looks like the old generation CASIO Digital Dairy with QWERTY keyboard which people used to store phone numbers and addresses before the advent of mobile phones].Nobody is selling digital dictionaries in India.In every shop the moment I say digital…, sales people used to bring those outdated CASIO digital dairies with greater enthusiasm.After facing few such setbacks I decided to get it from US.Then to my rescue came my sister Usha and her friend Anjali to Trivandrum for their internship. And the point is that Anjali is an NRI and she was planning to go all the way to US and come back , all within a week span. See what a perfect oppurtunity for me to get DD.I thought God has sent them to meet me only to get DD for me and I capitalized on that situation.I still remember how I tortured her till she went to US and came back with DD.Carrying a DD is like carrying all the words with you.Its a very good gadget to own and use.It is enabling me to learn in a different way like never before.I learned many words with the help of that.Whenever I see a new word let it be on road or at railway station or on the huge sign boards used for advertising or whatever may be the place I can demystify the word then and there. Now I have dictionary at my office in my desktop, at home in my laptop and my DD will always accompany me on the go.

But vocabulary is just a part of English language.There are other areas with their own set of challenges like grammar which keeps on changing from time to time, writing skills are there to be learnt and of course reading and comprehending pages of print are other areas of paramount importance.Last 2 years have been wonderful learning experience and have shown significant improvement in me.Now I am now looking forward to enter these areas as well so as to keep my learning complete and meaningful.Writing this blog also is the part of my learning excercise.

While closing I want to mention few people who have helped and are still helping me in my efforts to improve my English language skills.First one to mention is my best friend Theja.His English is too good and see his blog to get thrilled.He has been very helpful and encouraging .He was patient enough to read my verbose and prolix mails, correcting them and suggesting the best despite his busy schedules.Everytime I talk to him few new words will be added to my vocabulary.Everytime he writes a mail to me it will bring new words along with the news.Next comes another friend Bhanu who always hits me back ruthlessly with the grammar mistakes I commit.Then comes another friend Sundar in his own style who suggests best of the books available for good read.I feel very much blessed to being associated with these kind of people. If you too have some comments please feel free to post them in comments section ๐Ÿ™‚ After all, successful people and leaders are also known for their best of the best communication skills. When they talk everyone will listen, When they walk, everyone will follow. Its just a matter of time before I too become one among them.Just watch.

Am I alone?

Its not long since I consciously chose to stay alone.Just with myself, no one else.There were days when I was scared so much to stay alone even for very few days when all of my roomies are away for their holidays during my college days.At that time I was well surrounded by so many people but still then I dont know why every single night was like a hell for me.But now the situation is so much different.I am far far away from any of my friends. I am in a place where I dont know anyone except for very few people. To be precise only 2 close pals. And just an year back I used to pray God everyday to take me away from this very same place before any of my friends so that I wont be the last soul who has to stay here without any closest friends. God has been so much kind to me and sent me to bangalore, then my city of dreams.Exactly after 8 months in bangalore having enough of traffic on Hosur road and spending most of the time in Infosys buses whose drivers wont at all get a change to go beyong gear-3 and at work with non-cooperative colleagues I saw no opurtunity to grow there and decided that I wont waste my time there.Thats how I ended up where I am now!

But now I am very grateful to bangalore.It depressed me a lot that staying in trivandrum that too alone turned out to be be nothing when compared to the frustration when I was in bangalore.Now I am alone in a big house.I can do whatever I want, no one to ask, no one to disturb, no one to get disturbed, I can spend as much time as I wish under shower, I can cook whatever I want whenever I want, I can scatter anything anywhere. I can see the channel I wish, listen the song I like. I have the time to contemplate, to study-I still remember how much I was struggled to concentrate in the midst of vociferous TV sound which my discourteous roommate used to watch when I was in bangalore ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

I couldn’t believe myself is it the same me.Well, now I liked this lonliness so much that sometimes I forget that I am alone and I wish there could be 10 more hours per day.Previously I thought I am an extrovert but now I can be as an introvert too.Never mind the few extra thousands which you have to pay for rent.Those are no match to the freedom you get to do whatever you want.Thanks to the the modern communications. All my closest friends and family are just away from a call or a click.I may be physically alone but my aspirations and my dreams are always there for me to challenge,allure and engage.